Destiny

Destiny is just something people come up with to not take responsibility for our actions, right?
right??
RIGHT??

This is how a lot of people view the world, for destiny is a silly notion only believed only by silly children and angsty teens,
right?

In my opinion,
eh, kinda

On one side of the issue, I am all for taking charge of your own life and saying "fuck how it 'supposed to be', I know how I want it to be and I'll work for it"
to me this makes perfect sense, you work for something, so you get it, eventually
of course this can't be true for everything (unrequited love, being something I can think of and am MOST familiar with)

but on the opposite side of Destiny
we are all meant to do something
if we weren't, why would soem of us be better at writing, listening, math, etc. than others?
if there weren't at least a trace of Destiy in all of us, we would not be able to appreciate the "Made For Eachother" romance

"It's like Destiny or something!"


well maybe it is

but the problem with Destiny is we can never really know what ours is, so its quite a hard concept to really believe in, especially if life deals us a crappy hand.
That leaves us asking "who the HELL would plan for my life to be like this???"

In my opinion the philosophy of destiny is more for the more fortunate in life, because it is so easy to thinks things are exactly how they were meant to be when everything is coming up roses.

TEENAGERDOM PART2, the lighter facts of teenage life

because of our crazy mood swings and hormones we have crazy energy and we have wonderful periods of elation

we have the whole world in front of us, and if we make the right choices, its quite possible that we can do anything we want in it (yes i know its cliche, but witht he right initiative its absolutely true)

we have the gift of youth and vitality, despite the fact that some of us dont view it that way

every new generation of teenagers is more progressive than the last and more open to the new things in this world than the last (i must say my current generation is pretty freakin awesome, so if the awesome is just increasing, be excited)

we are the future, no matter how you spin it

(i know this list is shorter than the earlier one, but, these things are for more important than most of everything in the other)

TEENAGERDOM, more commonly know as, ANGST, ANGST, ANGST

I really have only two words for the state of being a teenager : it. sucks.

Now don't getme wrong here, I lvoe being a teenager, but it sucks in so many ways.

Horomones are rushing left, right, and sideways

most of us can't stay in a relationship with anyone for any reasonable amount of time

we constantly gossip and stab eachother in the back

people who have been friends since kidergarten grow eons apart

we are busier than most adults give us credit for

we want to be independent, and almost canb e, but we either just aren't there yet, or we are kept in check by parents

our bodies are fully out of whack untill maybe senior year (and even then)
and especially the acne, OH GOD THE ACNE

oh also, lets not forget the promise/stress of the future bearing down on us like a large and scary yet promising ogre



Ok so i'm pretty sure i know what you're thinking right now
"woah, dude, emo much?"

these are just all the negatives, i shall do the positivies tomorrow (see what i did there? i made you want to come back tomorrow!)

Once Upon a Dream

There once was a little 8th grader who dreamed of having a boyfriend, of having someone with whom he would be happy with and love.

He's now a sophmore, and he's still dreaming (not to say he didn't get close to that dream)

but one thing this boy...me, noticed, is that although having my head up on cloud nine may not be the best thing all the time, I drew strength from all my daydreaming of an epic romance.

I now realize after a recent breakup, how strong dreams can make you. I know this sounds corny as hell, but bear with me here, I'm quite sure I have a point. I only realized this because, for a little while I had just stopped my little flights of fancy, but when they came back I just felt all the more better.

There was a palpable difference in me when I did not dream. Also once I got back in control of my daydreaming, my night dreams got better too! (for example no more upsetting drems about my ex, making me feel guilty about breaking up)

I must say, that now that I have gotten back into my dreaming habit I am so much more happy.

Dreams, they are truly a great and powerful thing. In my opinion, they are little messages from our subconcious telling us what we may or may not want from life.

Plus whenever I have a dream I always feel well rested (as long as that dream was good). Does anyone else feel like that?

school and how it fits in with real life

I am the doorway to the future and the dampener of the present, well most of the time...
What am I?
If you can read, and have minimal deductive skills, you should know the answer is School.

My feelings towards school are so bittersweet, for I must admit that I do love school (if only because it means seeing friends I love dearly), but I 100% HATE homework, which is sadly a part of school.

To me it just seems so unjust because if you look at the adult world of work, most adults never have to bring work home with them, sure there's some paperwork, but that's it.
Mind you I'm referencing your normal job, thsi excludes teachers, doctors and lawyers.

Now don't get mer wrong here, I really like learning, but there are times when homework is the LAST thing on my mind.

All that being said, school is a wonderful place for kids and teenagers to grow, but some curriculums just don't make sense when it comes to the real world.

For example a junior at my school would have to outline and read 20 pages of a textbook, 20 pages of some book for english, answer questions on that book, write a paper, do horrendous amounts of problems for physics and math. And study for a test tomorrow in (insert foreign language here).
Oh and I forgot to mention that this person is most likely either in a sport, club, or theatre production, or possibly a combination of the above.
And don't forget they also are expected to practice some sort of instrument every night.

Now one might ask, why the HELL would somone kill themselves with so much?

The answer is simple, that school that comes after highschool, college.

It is what so many of us aim for (including myself), especially those 'highly prestigious schools'.

To some degree this makes sense, for we all want to ensure the safety of our futures etc., but WHAT THE HELL ABOUT OUR PRESENT? Are our best highschool memories supposed to be of slaving away in front of a computer doing some stupid essay? or pouring ourselves of a pethera of dry textbooks? or spreading ourselves so thin that we eventually break under the pressure of trying to do everything?

So thinking about school, and college, i just wonder, is there any other system we can follow that teenagers get to have some more interesting flashbacks than "well i spent this one night studying for five hours..."?

Parents

We all know they mean well, but why do they have to drive us SO insane?
Just for example, I was just working away at homework and then studying for my AP. The first thing my mother says as she leaves is "you should do some AP review".
I very much felt an incredible urge to yell, "ARE YOU BLIND WOMAN?! WHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE I'M DOING??"
but I refrained myself for four reasons:
1. I am currently reading a book that discourages such reactive behavior and encourages self control
2. Respect for my mother
3. I am trying to be less surly with my parents
4. I was getting up to go post on this blog....

but still, parents have quite a maddening effect on us all, teenaged, or adult.

For example I see it all the time with my mother and MY grandmother, and my ma is not afraid to express how she feels about that. I'm not going to mention such complaints out of respect for both, but it raises a question to me, if my mother is just as peeved by her own as I can be with her, why does she not keep this from happening with me and her?

I'm qutie sure I'm getting a little worked up here, but oh well.

I'll leave you with a question and an answer.

What's your biggest pet peeve with your parents?
Mine is them telling me to do things when I have already done them, or AS I'm doing them.

bad news...

from what i can tell blogger will NOT let me copy and paste from a word document, i do not know why, i am very sorry, but until further notice, the chapter by chapter weekly viewing of my book has been nixed

if you know how to make it so i CAN let you guys read my book, PLEASE COMMENT AND SAY SO